In dreams

I finally dreamt about Joe last night! This is the first time I’ve seen him in my dreams at night. He visited me once during a nap one afternoon when I fell asleep in the living room chair. That one was brief, and sweet, and almost like a flashback from the beginning of our relationship.

Last night was like a feature film. To see him smiling at me was such a gift. It was a really weird dream though. It waffled back and forth between us driving around in an old truck we used to have, to him being in the hospital he was in when he passed away. There was even some drama because he left the hospital (hence driving around in the truck), and when he started to fade I had to get him back to the hospital before he was listed as AMA (against medical advice). That almost happened to us in 2017 after his first colon surgery. It took the hospital over 12 hours to release him due to a small error on his doctor’s part. Had we left, it would have been considered AMA and insurance wouldn’t have covered the stay. So strange how that came up in this dream six years later.

There was very little talking, but he was right there beside me, and I was able to look in his beautiful eyes. The dream ended before anything bad happened. I think he was trying to tell me he is okay.

He’s fine in heaven.

There are so many songs to share about dreams and nightmares. And every one of them is on our backyard playlist. Here are few in no particular order.

I am so grateful for this experience. I woke up this morning with a peace in my heart I hadn’t felt before.

Every moment I’m awake the further I’m away, but last night my dreams took me to the bright side of the moon where he took my hand and we were off to never-never land. (see what I did there?)

I hope your loved one visits you in your dreams tonight.