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Don’t let the moment pass you by
I was watching one of my all-time favorite movies over the weekend, “My Best Friend’s Wedding”, with Julie Roberts. The scene on the ferry, when Julianne and Michael almost profess their love for one another, gets me every time. Michael’s fiancé Kimmy was right, “when you love someone you should say it right then, out…
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2am
I haven’t been sleeping well lately. I fall asleep quickly but wake up multiple times in the middle of the night and just stare at the ceiling. Sometimes for hours. Maybe it’s insomnia, maybe it’s depression. I think I’m just lonely. I’m not talking about lonely for visitors. I don’t mean lonely for conversation around…
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History repeating itself
It’s been 72 hours since the election. I am struggling big time. Appalled at the hate-filled comments I am reading and hearing every day on social media. Disappointed with the lack of respect for the political process. Disgusted at the lack of respect for each other. I am perplexed at the comments about God controlling…
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But we’re all gonna be alright
I’ve mentioned before that I’m not into social media much. I hang out mostly on Facebook just to keep up with friends and family. I look at their pictures, see what’s new in their lives. But sometimes even Facebook can become too much. Between all the political bickering and those awful memories, I decided to…
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Love hurts
I’ve been struggling for sometime now with joint pain. At first, I thought I was just getting older, until the flareups made it hard to climb out of bed in the morning. I visited a rheumatologist who assured me it was nothing more than osteoarthritis. But “nothing more than” hurts like hell. There are days…
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Reminiscing
I reminisce a lot these days. It’s hard not to when memories of my late husband are all around me. Our life is plastered on every wall in our home, on my desk at work, in the photos on my phone. I knew him better than anyone on this earth. We finished each other’s sentences,…
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Online
Can we talk about social media for a minute? I’m not a huge social media person. I don’t have Instagram or TikTok. I don’t read books on a Kindle, and I still print recipes out on paper before I make them. But the Facebook, now that one I am all over. We started with a…
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There you’ll be
Have you given any thought to your final arrangements? My Joe chose cremation. So many of us choose this method rather than being buried. I’ve have never wanted to be put in a cemetery where my son would feel obligated to visit and place flowers on my grave. I want to be cremated when my…
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Better days
I am just over the four-month mark since losing my Joe. My brain seems to be working better now. I didn’t even realize the fog I’d been in. Grieving clouds everything. Imagine if you will a veil over your head. One that allows a small amount of light in, but nothing is clearly visible. Sounds…
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Just a little unwell
I don’t spend a lot of my time worrying these days. Not really much to worry about anymore. When Joe was going through cancer, I developed some crazy anxiety. Lucky for me Joe could always recognize it before it got out of hand. He’d say “let’s go for a ride”. We’d drive around listening to…
WidowSpeak - Random thoughts after losing my husband 