This is the real and raw journey of my grief after losing both of my amazing parents and my beautiful husband over the course of just 13 short months. You’ll find music in almost every post as it was an integral part of my marriage.

Queen Elizabeth II was right when she said

“Grief is the price we pay for love.”

  • I’m not crying, you’re crying

    I’m not crying, you’re crying

    For the love of all things holy, why can’t I stop crying? Why can’t I just sit down, have a good cry and move on. The tears come whenever they want. Sometimes, as I’m getting ready for work in the morning, I have to change my tear-soaked shirt before I can actually leave the house.…

  • Single chicken breast please

    Single chicken breast please

    You know what my nemesis is right now? The grocery store. It’s so ridiculous. It’s the place where I lose it most often. “Don’t mind me” I say to myself as the other shoppers wheel past the crazy lady crying on the potato chip aisle. I have almost left a full cart and walked out,…

  • For the record . . .

    For the record . . .

    I wasn’t being entirely truthful in my first post. My beautiful man did experience cardiac death and he did pass away on September 22nd. But a lot of things happened between those two events. Joe’s heart stopped beating sitting in his recliner on the night of September 9th, as we were chatting back and forth…

  • Signs from Heaven

    Signs from Heaven

    I have always been a firm believer in signs. And I believe those that have gone before us have the ability to send us signs exactly when we need them. One of my all-time favorite movies “Serendipity” calls it a fortunate discovery. Every day I look for serendipity, signs from my Joe. One day in…

  • Let me off this ride!

    Let me off this ride!

    They say the seven stages of grief can be expected after a loved one dies. Shock, denial, anger, bargaining, depression, testing, and acceptance. I’m a very organized and routine person who has always followed the “rules”. When my husband passed away I was expecting those stages to fall in line. It’s only been 54 days…

About me:

I’m Kelly. Widowed at 59, this is the story of losing my husband and both of my parents over the course of 13 months. I lost my dad to kidney cancer in the fall of 2022, my mom to dementia and a broken heart in April of 2023, and just five short months later, my beautiful husband Joe passed away in September 2023 from complications after cardiac arrest. We were married for almost 22 years. I’m a mom to an amazing son, and I have been an executive assistant for over 40 years. I live just outside of Tulsa, Oklahoma with our 2 rescue dogs Hope & Grace.